“This isn’t how we handle family business,” he added, and I felt something inside me splinter at the phrase, like my need had been reduced to paperwork.
Family business.
I stared at him, at the son I had carried, fed, loved, and somehow it felt like I was looking at a man I didn’t know.
“I can’t live in my house anymore,” I said, forcing the words through the knot in my throat. “I’m sleeping on the living room couch. I’m using a bedpan. Mrs. Patterson helps me shower because I can’t get into my own bathroom.”
Michael’s gaze flicked away. Not from guilt exactly. More like discomfort.
“And you’ll get help,” he said, as if reading from a script. “But not like this. Ashley has dinner planned. The kids have homework. We have a routine.”
A routine that apparently didn’t include space for his mother.
“I’m not asking to disrupt your routine,” I said, and I heard the desperation I’d been trying to hide. “Just a place to sleep until I can figure something out. A week, maybe two.”
Michael’s jaw flexed as if he were chewing on the words.
“Mom,” he said, and his tone sharpened, “you know how Ashley feels about unexpected changes to our household dynamic.”
Unexpected changes.
That’s what I’d become.
I felt heat rise behind my eyes, but I blinked it back. Crying in his driveway wouldn’t change anything. It would only confirm whatever story they’d already decided to tell themselves about me.
“I helped you buy this house,” I said quietly.
His eyes snapped to mine, irritation flashing.
“That was different,” he said. “That was a loan. We paid it back.”
I almost laughed. Not because it was funny, but because the lie was so clean, so practiced.
Twenty thousand dollars.
Robert had liquidated his retirement fund early, paying penalties we couldn’t afford, because Michael needed help getting established. We’d told ourselves it was an investment in family. They’d paid back exactly three thousand, then the payments stopped, and the subject became too awkward to mention, too messy, too likely to trigger a fight we were afraid would crack the illusion that everything was fine.
Now Michael spoke as if it were settled history. As if I were inventing the debt.
The door opened again, and Ashley stepped out onto the porch, her smile smooth as glass.
“Helen,” she said brightly, like we were at a brunch. “What a surprise. Michael tells me you’re having some challenges with your living situation.”
Challenges.
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