“I’m your mother. I don’t need to ask permission to enjoy my daughter’s success.”
It would go in circles. They would gaslight me, twist my words, make me feel small and petty. They’d make me apologize for having the audacity to own property and set boundaries.
I merged onto the freeway. Rain hit the windshield—that familiar Seattle gray that some people found depressing but I found comforting.
I wasn’t going to call. Calling was weak. Calling meant engaging in their drama, and my mother thrived on drama. She wanted a fight so she could tell all her friends how difficult and ungrateful I was.
I wasn’t going to give her a fight.
I was going to give her consequences.
I drove for over an hour, just listening to the tires on wet pavement. My anger was hot at first, burning in my throat and behind my eyes. But as I drove, it started to cool and harden.
It turned into something else.
It turned into ice.
I pulled over at a rest stop and looked at my phone one more time.
My mother had posted a story update—a video this time. She was walking through my kitchen, opening my cupboards, showing the camera inside.
“Look at this,” she was saying. “Empty. She has all this space and no food. She works too much. It’s sad, really. We’re going to fill this place up with love.”
Sad.
She called my life sad. She was mocking my choices while standing in the middle of the luxury I’d provided through years of hard work and sacrifice.
I put the phone down on the passenger seat.
I was done feeling hurt. Hurt was a child’s emotion. Hurt was for people who had no power to change their situation.
I wasn’t a child anymore.
I was the owner. And it was time I acted like it.
I turned the car around and headed back to the city. I had a plan forming in my mind, clear and cold and absolutely necessary.
I walked into my Seattle apartment. Everything was exactly where I’d left it—clean, minimal, quiet. That’s how I liked things: order, control, predictability.
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